The video in question is relatively mild when compared with behaviors I’ve observed throughout most of my life. Not to mention false statements previously posted and deleted by the same individual. In spite of everything, my heart aches deeply for her considering the amount of trauma and pain she’s been through. You can’t control how others react to you, but you can control your own actions and reactions.
I’ve often chosen to overlook negative comments about myself and held back from expressing my own reality. Interestingly, I opt to remain ambiguous in order to safeguard those who failed to safeguard me.
My decision to discontinue contact with each of my parents stems from unique reasons. The lack of communication with my mother has nothing to do with my father, just as the lack of communication with my father has no connection to my mother.
This relates as well to my father’s second, third, and current wife. The conclusion to cease contact is solely based on their individual treatment towards me my whole life.
What I’m about to divulge doesn’t target a specific individual and isn’t arranged according to who did what. It’s my personal account of the truth; anyone can make their own deductions.
Since my younger years, I’ve been subjected to intense verbal and psychological abuse that would frequently become physical. It’s noteworthy that abuse has no fixed form or size.
This notorious loop has stolen my self-esteem or the semblance of confidence I’ve been conditioned to exhibit.
It took me a considerable time to realize that actions supposedly carried out in my interest were actually favoring someone else more substantially.
I’ve been on the receiving end of hostile and distasteful text messages, public insults with painful words that can’t be forgotten till adulthood. I’ve defended reprehensible behavior in public out of love only to discover I was mislead, and used. Despite the constant criticism I get for others’ mistakes, I watch them profit off my suffering and shame caused by their selfishness. As my life fell into chaos, I continued to display resilience silently.
Expected to forgive major offenses towards my career and personal life, along with deceit, lies, manipulation, and repetitive mistakes, I have often felt like a pawn and treated as naive. This is not a humane way to treat anyone.
My heart aches each day and there isn’t a day that it doesn’t affect me. The brave little girl inside me yearns for her mother and father. Their actions proved to be more hurtful than their absence.
Life is a gift, and my desire is to enjoy what matters most—my children, and the life I have painstakingly created and wish to protect—without any further toxic influences.
There are families in the world struggling with hunger, parents caring for sick children… severe hardships compared to which we were blessed yet everyone chose their own path. Accepting responsibility for one’s actions is a game-changer.